Another Lyme voice falls silent
Guest blogger Sandi Bohle offers this appreciation for the legacy of Leslie Feinberg, who died this week from complications of Lyme disease.
I first heard of author Leslie Feinberg in the early 1990s when her first book Stone Butch Blues was released, a legendary novel about a working class gay woman struggling to find herself as she worked in factories and blue collar jobs in the 1960s. Part autobiography, the book introduced Feinberg as a pivotal voice in the LGBT movement and has continued to be cited as one of the most important pieces of written work about lesbian women. It is widely considered around the world as a groundbreaking work about the complexities of gender.
So it was quite a shock today to hear that she had died this past weekend, due to complications from Lyme disease and multiple tick-borne co-infections. She was 65 and died at home in Syracuse, NY, with her partner and spouse of 22 years, Minnie Bruce Pratt, at her side. Her historical and theoretical writing has been widely anthologized and taught in the U.S. and international academic circles. Feinberg authored other non-fiction books, Transgender Warriors: Making History, Trans Liberation: Beyond Pink or Blue, and Rainbow Solidarity in Defense of Cuba, as well as a second novel, Drag King Dreams.
I had known of Feinberg’s health journey and the battles she fought every day. There had been many fundraisers to help her with expenses and medical bills, so often the case in the Lyme community when you hit bottom after spending your savings, cashing out your 401k and your life insurance policy, so that you can continue trying to find answers to whatever this is that has taken over your body and your mind.
Like many of us who have dealt with seeing doctor after doctor trying to get diagnosed, she had an almost four-decade journey before she was diagnosed in 2008 with Lyme and multiple tick-borne co-infections, having been first infected in the early 1970s when little was known about the disease.
But Feinberg did not let Lyme silence her. When illness would not allow her to read, write, or talk, Feinberg expressed herself through art, picking up a camera for the first time, and created “The Screened-In Series,” a disability-art class-conscious documentary of her Hawley-Green neighborhood photographed entirely from behind the windows of her apartment.
She attributed her health crisis to “bigotry, prejudice and lack of science.” Active prejudice toward her transgender identity made access to health care exceedingly difficult, and lack of science hindered mainstream medicine’s information, treatment, and research about Lyme and its co-infections. She wrote online about these issues in her blog Casualty of an Undeclared War.
“I have Lyme disease and co-infections. I, and uncounted others, are casualties of an undeclared war,” she said, “…A struggle can fight for and win scientific inquiry, and the funds necessary to treat those who are ill—not only for those in the U.S., but around the world….My experience in ILADS care offers great hope to desperately-ill people who are in earlier stages of tick-borne diseases.”
At the time of her death she was preparing a 20th anniversary edition of Stone Butch Blues. She worked on the book up to a few days before she died.
Yet another voice has been silenced by Lyme.
You can read more of Feinberg’s research and thoughts on Lyme disease on her blog.
Click here to read Feinberg’s obituary in The Advocate.
Sandi Bohle is an entertainment lighting designer and Lyme patient/advocate/activist in Los Angeles. She can be contacted at solasdesigns@gmail.com .
Sandi,
Thank you for writing about Leslie Feinberg’s passing on your blog! I appreciate that you called out the transphobic sexual assault and religious abuse that prevented proper treatment from taking place. There’s a conversation happening in the Trans community about whether to include Leslie’s name on Transgender Day Of Remembrance this Thursday. Some groups will be doing so; others feel TDOR is reserved specifically for more direct and immediate murders.
Speaking of trans issues, Leslie Feinberg is basically the reason so many of us nonbinary people are having the courage to expect our pronouns to be used. Would you be willing, in that light, to edit your post to remind people that Leslie did not use she/her pronouns to describe hirself, but zie/hir?
As another nonbinary trans persyn, I feel the context missing in the obituary hir partner Minnie wrote; specifically, that it gets tiring to fight for your pronouns. Leslie was a true feminist, working in solidarity with a wide variety of communities for many different causes. Seems like zie put hirself to the side a lot to make good things happen; it would be good to thank zie by centering hir and using the appropriate pronouns.
Thanks in advance.
Favorite quote of Leslie Feinberg,
“If there is no struggle there is no progress. Those who profess to favor freedom and yet depreciate agitation…want crops without plowing up the ground, they want rain without thunder and lightning. They want the ocean without the awful roar of its many waters. … Power concedes nothing without a demand. It never did and it never will.”
Abolitionist Frederick Douglass
From Casualty of an Undeclared War series, by Leslie Feinberg http://www.transgenderwarrior.org/lymeseries.html
Eight years post diagnosis. Two more summers with tick bites since. Treated with doxycycline several times. Using supplements of olive leaf, etc. Etc etc. Now have up and down muscular neck pain and stiffness and head pain. Feeling doomed. No Dr will help or even agree it could be chronic Lyme. Inactive from it. Worried.